Goodbye...

One last poem before I’m gone forever
Into the unknown never to ask your love again.
Rest and be at ease, I apologize for my sudden need.
I feel weak and delusional, I dredge my creed.

My love for you reached a height
Is it rage, is it peace or just my plight?
Regardless the desire, regardless the hour,
As strong as the sun with twice its Power.

But I felt disbelief in seeing you weren’t the one.
You and I both know the truth, all that's said and done,
So here’s my last poem to the Love I’ll always hate.
With my words I scream as my heart closes it's gate.

My Silent Tears

Last night before I went to bed
Thoughts of you filled my head
Though I have not cried this way in many years
Onto my pillow fell six silent tears

The first was for your smile that I miss
And your tender lips I long to kiss
The second was for your angle face
And thoughts of your loving embrace

The third came with no surprise
As I thought of your beautiful eyes
The fourth came rolling down my face
Instead of my pillow, it should be you in it's place.

The fifth came for one reason alone
I felt my love for you wasn't fully shown
I really love and miss you my dear
And there just fell the sixth silent tear.

Every Day

Each day the sun rises, and each night the sun sets.
Each day I wake up, and put on that fake smile.

Each day I muse myself about you, and each night I dream of you.
Each day I miss you, and I want to be beside you.

Each day I busy myself, and each night I fail at simple things.
Each day my old life haunts me, and every day I live in misery.

Each day I am unappreciated, and each night I keep to myself.
Each day I live my life in fear, and I bear this uncontrollable anger.

Each day I wake up, and each night I fight those tears.
Each day you call me, and then everything disappears.

Each day I send a little prayer, and each night I send another.
Each day I live the fullest, and only living for your love.

Hate to be in love!

Well my soul is empty now,
You slipped away from me somehow,
I guess I knew, it had to be,
I tore the flesh away from fantasy…

I can feel this setting sun
Chill my veins, the blood is gone,
I can feel the spirit tearing out my heart,
This is real, the damage is done
Never will heal this skeletal life,
I feel her ripping, tearing out my heart…

So much for love's intensity,
It runs so hot, but cuts so deep,
It makes me blind, afraid to speak,
You've seen me sweat, now watch me bleed…

Lobo & I...

I stopped trying to be beside you on every crossroad
You said you don’t have much time for me anymore
I stopped talking to you without an appointment
Cause I would hear laughter coming through your door.

Sometimes late at night you'll still call me
Just before you close your eyes to sleep
You try to make me vow to stay a good friend always
Baby that's a promise I just can't keep.

I love you too much to ever start liking you
So let’s just let the story kinda end
I love you too much to ever start liking you
So don't expect me to be your friend.

I don't walk down through those places any more
That we used to go to all the time in my mind
I'm trying to erase you from my memory
Cause thinking of you jumbles up my mind.

You always act so happy when I see you
You smile that way you take my hand and then
You Introduce me to your latest lover
That's when I feel the walls start crashing in.

I love you too much to ever start liking you
So let’s just let the story kinda end
I love you too much to ever start liking you
So don't expect me to be your friend.

I am no one to you

Who are you?
I try to find out, but you will not tell me.
I don't know why, but when I ask you don't seem to notice.
You just look away as though I'm not there.
I am no one.

What are you doing to me?
Do you find pleasure in my sorrow?
Are you pleased when you see me fall into a pit of you?
You just smile as you watch me cry.
I am no one.

When will you stop the pain?
Is it that hard to maintain without hurting me so?
I would like to know you, but you just slip away from me.
It's hard and I know you don't love me.
I am no one.

Where is your heart
If it is not with me?
If you don't understand.. we'd never be we...
Yet you don't seem to hear the dripping of my tears.
I am no one.

Why are you leaving?
I'm sorry that I wasn't all you hoped for.
I can't explain why I wasn't all you dreamed of.
But I do know why you will never notice me.
I am no one to you.

Dont worry love...

Within the night,
The coldest storm
I am the light
I'll keep you warm
Throughout your lies,
I am the truth
Your doubts that rise,
I am your proof
I am what I am,
And I am there for you
Inside your heart,
Inside your mind
I am a part,
As you are in mine

You have me...

I am always there for u
To lean on when u wanna cry.
I am there for when u are sad.
I will always back u up when u make a mess.

For sure when you want to talk
I am there for you.
When you want to cry
You can count on me.

When u want someone to shut up and listen
You bet I am gonna listen.
When u need an advice
I will give u one.

I am always there when u are alone
When u feel all alone and invisible.
That’s when I am there for u the most!
You are very dear to me!

So when u are alone don’t say
You are invisible.
And when no one cares about u
Dats when i care for u the most!

So turn around
You'll see I am right there.
Right from the beginning
You just haven’t noticed yet.

I will always be there for u!
So turn and see that I’m always right by your side.
So don’t ever say u are alone!
I am always there till the end......

Someday... Somewhere... Somehow...

On my pillow lay marks of tears
Produced by the bitter mark of fear
One that’s perhaps very sincere
And yet my soul continue to think it unfair
And my mind has the feeling of despair
But my soul will forever care
And my senses continue to stare
And so am I willing to dare?

For losing you is indefinable
And my heart will forever be insatiable
I never envisioned this day
And now my mind is in dismay
But yet in my bed I lay
Engaging in constant pray
But yet my thoughts are astray
Hoping for that very day

When you open your eyes and see the sign
And with a smile you let me call you mine

Trying not to want anything from u...

I try to pretend
I try to shut out
The storm that's raging
In my torn heart.

I try to hate you
Just so it'll be easy
To just help me forget
The love I have for you.

That something I hide
I hide it from you
Because you can never know
You can’t ever know

If that something
Ever got out to you
I fear the worst
I fear losing you.

I know that you don’t have
Any love to give me
So I just try my best
To give my emotions a rest.

Cause having just a part of you
Just even a little piece
A tiny speck is better
Than not having you at all.

Dido & I...

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on...

Why can't you? Why don't you?

Why am I lonely, you're with me right here
Why am I talking, it's like I'm talking to the air
What am I looking for that just isn't there
Why am I angry, how'd it get so bad
And why am I missing what we never really had

Why don't you love me the way I love you
Why don't you feel things as deep as I do
We've got a difference in matters of emotion
But I need to feel you need me like a river needs an ocean

Who am I kidding "it wasn't meant to be"
But you wanted a believer and I needed to believe
For every wall you built around you
I learned a new way to climb
And if I could've been your angel
I would've found a way to fly

How can you tell me to do this?

I'm doing the best I can, but I’m startin' to understand
The best I’ve got ain't getting me anywhere
I'm fightin' with all my might, but when I’m alone at night
Your memory is more than I can bear

I make it a little while, without thinking of your sweet smile
Then suddenly I see you in my mind
Keep telling myself you're gone, keep saying I’m moving on
But everyday I’m falling more behind

You said I’d be fine but you were lying
Cause after all this time it feels like dying

Trying not to love you is like trying not to breathe
Something that I haven't learned to do
I can't stop believing you're everything I need
That's a place my heart just won't go to
Trying not to love you...

Why... Love?

Trying not to love you, failing in every way
With you around I keep losing ground day by day
Trying to be fair both to me and to you
Trying not to love you, is hard to do.
But, I guess there's no use hiding
What everybody knows
Cause to other eyes there's no disguise
For the love that shows
So If I'm not being clear
I'll explain these words to you
Trying not to love you is hard to do.